I am exhausted from another sleepless night and feel completely abandoned. Of course I know that I am not (considering my amazing family and friends), but my heart hurts and the weather sucks. I just want to crawl back under my covers and cry.
I had my PET-scan yesterday and hopefully will get those results soon. I had blood work this morning for my surgery scheduled for tomorrow and my arm is completely black and blue and swollen from all the IVs, medications and contrast. They are running out of veins at this point in my arm to use. I don't want to have my port put in tomorrow, but just like the last few weeks, I am stuck in the whirlwind of just going with the flow and putting my trust in my doctors. I just wish I could fast forward and be done with all of this already.
I have back-to-back meetings all day and cannot seem to focus on anything. I am scared of what lies ahead and feel as though I am doing it alone now. My heart is breaking ...
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